6.12.2011
Thankful (in Pictures) 3
6.05.2011
Stories
He rides his bike into the front gate of the school. At first glance, you may think he just came from down the street. In actuality, he started his journey to school about 45 minutes earlier. He left his home and made it to the main road where he catches a song teaw (public transportation truck) and drives about 30 minutes. Then, his little finger presses the red button on the ceiling of the truck to tell the driver to pull over. He gives the driver the coin out of the palm of his little hand and walks to the corner shop where he pays for them to store his bicycle. He picks up his bicycle and bikes 2 KM to our school. This process is repeated in the afternoon. However, there are times where he lingers after school. He could jump straight on his bike and leave the instant school lets out. His lingering tells me he likes the fellowship that the schoolyard has to offer.
He is told he isn't as smart as his sister. He's teased about being fat and I witness him sucking in his stomach as far as it'll go while being measured for his uniform because for once, he doesn't want to feel fat. He just got beat up by some kids recently and spent 1/2 a school day at the police station to report the incident. He has the most tender heart that I've ever seen. He plays basketball with me. I shoot and the ball hits the backboard but is no where near making it into the hoop, he looks at me with a smile that reaches his eyes and tells me "good job, teacher." The kid who receives no encouragement (besides at school), is encouraging me!
Everyone has a story. There is no way to explain why some stories have so much hardship. However, each story is unique. The one thing that I do know is each story is known in full by our Heavenly Father. Our Heavenly Father who's desire is to be at the heart of that story. To be the Healer, the Redeemer, and the Savior.
"Oh yes, you shaped me first inside, then out; you formed me in my mother's womb. I thank you, High God - you're breathtaking! Body and soul, I am marvelously made! I worship in adoration - what a creation! You know me inside out, you know every bone in my body; You know exactly how I was made, bit by bit, how I was sculpted from nothing into something. Like an open book, you watched me grow from conception to birth; all the stages of my life were spread out before you." Psalm 139 (Message)
6.04.2011
Thankful (in Pictures) 2
13. Rotee stands on the side of the road (stand on the left, rotee on the right).6.01.2011
Gardener
And we had our "garden." We didn't plant anything - waiting until we had students. Needless to say - last year we were busy enough trying to iron out any wrinkles that we found in our brand new school project and gardening just went to the back burner. And as things tend to grow - weeds took over our garden. We would have landscaping days to try to tame the jungle growing behind our school.
Just this week - Rob brought a friend who happens to be a farmer in Australia. So, Tony cleaned out our garden again. Spent hours getting things ready for our students to begin planting. And so they did. They took the tiny seeds in their tiny hands and buried them the in piles of dirt. Sweat beads pouring from their little brows as they took the watering can and watered the newly upturned dirt. And I started thinking. . . I was thinking about doing a "clean slate" blog about the beginning of this year. How this year signified a clean canvas. However, the gardening theme seemed to fit even better.
Our Gardener
I watch my kiddos dig through the dirt and watch intently as Farmer Tony shows them what to do. Even though they don't speak the same language, they want to figure out what he is trying to tell him. They didn't do it perfectly as he said some needed to be 10 centimeters apart and some ended up less than a centimeter apart. However, he lovingly came along side them. Telling them it wouldn't be perfect - but it didn't have to be. It would be great. He knew it.
I am reminded that God is the gardener of our hearts.
We got to the point where we had to call in a professional. The garden was overgrown with weeds and we didn't know what we were doing - so a volunteer came in and tranformed it. He went back to the foundation. He leveled it out and started again. Clean (as clean as dirt can be :). He used what was there and tranformed it back to what it was originally meant to be.
This is so what God longs to do in our hearts. He's just waiting for us to call in the pro. Jesus is ready to transform us but he's waiting. Waiting for us tell him that we can't do it alone. There are too many weeds. There's too much work and we can't do it all on our own. Even if we try - we tire easily and grow weary. But He doesn't. He may have to pull a lot of weeds. And it might hurt. He might have to get all the way back to the foundation. But He promises to come along side us the entire time. He promises that beauty will come of what seeds are planted. Maybe beauty we can't define or can't see - but it'll be for His Glory and that's beautiful. I'm also reminded that you can't just call in the gardener once and then call it good. It takes nurturing. It takes constant cleaning out and constant love if something of worth is going to grow and be of lasting value. Eternal value.
He makes all things new. No matter where we are at. No matter how "clean" or how "dirty" our garden is.
Planting Seeds
On this same note but in a different angle - I think of the seeds being planted. I think of the seeds of Christ's love being planted in the hearts of our students. In the hearts of these kiddos - some orphaned, some living with a grandma or a grandpa, some living with a mom and dad, some with broken families - we have kids all over the map. And my prayer is that EVERY ONE of them receives a seed in their heart that takes hold. One that inspires them. One that encourages them. One that points them to the only one who can truly satisfy - Jesus.
5.22.2011
Thankful (in Pictures) 1
Amy and I pushing our car out of flood waters after it died in the middle of the flood.
5.14.2011
Buttons For May

the ally that leads to May's house
I see May on her bike riding with her cousin on the back. I meet up with them and we walk down the ally towards her house. Her little cousin (he's probably 7 or 8 years old) points at a large pile of fresh dog poo and makes sure I steer clear of that and that made me smile. I walk into the area where there are about 4 or 5 separate houses, some made of dilapidated wood and some in small concrete buildings. May pulls out the completely rusted fold away table and her aunt pulls out the table cloth. We make small talk.
May's cousin who likes to pop in every now and again and watch us make cards.
I start teaching May a new card. They asked if we could start on Christmas cards because someone from the states is coming next month and they wanted to have a variety to offer. So, I start teaching her.
And I get to thinking, this time is so much more than what I realize. I wasn't too excited with the design I came up with . . . but this is more than that. I laugh as the cat with one black eye and one green eye jumps on the table and steps right on our freshly sponge painted paper and gets dirt all over the piece we just made . . . but this is more than that. We look at each other awkwardly when the Thai words I'm looking for just don't come . . . but this is more than that. I teach May and try to ignore the people who walk by and just stare and just watch and I don't understand them . . . but this is more than that.
We are making a Christmas card. Christmas. We're making something that signifies the birth of a Savior. A card that celebrates that God loved us so much that He sent His son to die for us.
And it hits me again. I'm reminded that this project is so much more than a project. This is about showing a young girl how she is so deeply loved by her Creator.
After we finished the card, I asked if I could take a picture (below) of her. Some man standing around watching started to laugh lightly. I knew May was a little uncomfortable with the attention. I walked by her and put a hand on her shoulder and called her beautiful. She made a sound that caused me to think. The sound she made was like an unsure giggle. Like her telling me she didn't believe me. That I was joking. And it made me sad. Does anyone ever call her beautiful?
So, I left with a reminder of why I'm doing this "project." A reminder that it's so much more than buttons, glue and paper. It's more than the times I feel inadequate and uninspired. It's about people. It's about May. It's about this orphan who needs to know she's beautiful. Needs to believe she's beautiful. Needs to know her creator. Needs to know that God has a plan to give her hope and a future. Hope here on Earth and eternal hope.
Please pray with me for May.
3.03.2011
Meet Mae
She's about to turn into the small gloomy ally that leads to her house. She's carrying her new plastic tote in hand. And my heart breaks.
This was our second class - and my third time meeting with Mae (for the back story, click on An Opportunity). Today I find out more of her story. I knew she needed to learn a trade. She needed a way to make a living. I knew she chose cardmaking. I knew she is 16, quit school and she is HIV positive.
But that's about all I knew. I don't need to know more, but it is a priveledge to know more about her, understand what makes her her. I don't want to just teach her how to glue some paper to some cardstock. But rather, to create. To feel passionate about what she does each day. I desire to build a friendship and hopefully share Christ's love with her through the process.
So, today I learn that Mae is an orphan. Orphaned by both parents. Both died of AIDS. She was born HIV positive. She lives with her aunt in the slums. She was going to school up until last semester. Until the issues caused by her HIV kept her from making it to school enough. She and her aunt tried to work with the teachers but the requirement is that she has to make it to at least 80% of her classes. It just got to the point where it wasn't possible. So, she had to drop out of school this past term.
P.'s been involved in Mae's community and her life for a long time and has known Mae for 7 years. She and church leaders decided to help Mae start her own business. They gave her different options and she chose card making - she thought it would be a good way to use her creativity. She likes to draw and from what I've seen - she's really talented.
Like I've said, we've just started classes. But I couldn't be prouder. She is so super quiet but she is a perfect student. She does everything exactly the way I show her. She does every "homework" assignment I've given her. She does such a great job and she seems to really enjoy it. She's been making more than what she committed to in the beginning - I think she's addicted to making them. She's doing awesome.
So, I leave you with this picture of Mae and her first card she's EVER made! Please pray for me as I work with Mae. Pray that she would be encouraged. Pray for the details of making/selling/supplies, etc. of the cardmaking process. And please pray ultimately that she will understand the love our Father has for her.
2.28.2011
An Opportunity
I almost missed it. I turned it down at first. And not gently. But quickly. And selfishly.
My roommates and I were in our teacher's planning room on a non-teaching day working on our prep. Emily opened an update from a local church here in Chiang Mai.
"Hey Brittany, they are looking for someone to help teach card making to a girl and her aunt who live in the slums. The girl has HIV and she is looking for a way to support herself. What do you think?"
Consumed by all I had on my plate, my response went something like "uh, yeah, that would be nice if I had the time - but I just don't feel like I do."
I think Emily thought I was frustrated that she would even bring that to my attention. Granted, she brought it up because she knows that I love making cards, that I love the opportunity to channel my creativity. And maybe I could meet a need by doing something I really enjoy.
But I see it differently - at first, I kept talking in circles, trying to justify my reasoning. About a minute later, I could feel the regret - I think I too hastily turned that down. I apologized for the way that I so quickly and curtly responded (thinking that would help get rid of the lump in my throat that just showed up).
But it didn't .
About a week later, after some thought and prayer - I decided to crack open the door. An opportunity knocked. I ignored it but it hadn't gone away. There was no update to say the need was filled.
The need was still sitting on my doorstep: the girl and her aunt (okay, not literally - just figuratively :).
They were still looking for someone to help. I wasn't comfortable about flinging to door wide open. I still had a lot of hesitations.
I mean, what do I really have to offer? Yeah, I've made home-made cards before - but they were just for fun. I never considered turning it into a business. I mean I am a foreigner in this country. I don't know the first thing about marketing the cards or where to find the best and cheapest supplies.
I had a long list of excuses but in the end, I decided to crack the door open. See if there was anything that I could to help - and if not - at least I tried. I could feel good about the fact that I peeked out. Then I could shut the door and feel justified.
So, I respond to the church's email. Letting them know I have a little experience in card making but wasn't sure about the whole resource and marketing piece of it all.
It took about a week to cooridnate between that email and the day that I went to meet the girl (Mae) and her aunt.
I drove into the slums. Parked my car. Made my way through the allies, walked past the chickens, past the shabby huts, sat on the rickety bench and met Mae and her aunt.
And as I drove away from my meeting, I prayed. And then I cried - knowing that this opportunity was one from God. Knowing that the door had been flung wide open and I no longer had a comfortable grip on the door knob. That me accepting it wasn't about me. It wasn't about how comfortable I felt or how prepared or ready or able (having time, resources, etc.). I still felt inadequate about what I was jumping into - but I knew I couldn't turn around.
It was His desire. It's about Him. About His sufficiency. About trusting that He will provide where I lack. It's about following where He leads - not justifying my reasons for standing still. But moving forward. Even if it's a baby step or opening the door a tiny crack - because He can use that. And He can move us forward - He just needs us to be willing.
I'm just starting a frienship with her; just starting to teach her - just scratching the surface of her story, my heart is broken and honored that I can be part of Mae's story and watch it unfold.
TO BE CONTINUED . . . (next I'll write a post about more of Mae's story and my first week of teaching her - which was last week. Also, I'll tell you how YOU can get involved in a simple but helpful way!)
1.25.2011
Identity of a Princess

She's quiet and timid, but the sparkle from her shoes reflected in her eyes.

There would be no parents there to watch, no one except for the students and volunteers that had been there all week.

1.11.2011
In the Meantime
A lot of things I want to write about.
I am linking you to 3 amazing bloggers:
Amy is my roommate and our 2nd grade teacher at The School of Promise. Her most recent post Fighting Culture is a must read. Click here for the homepage of her blog.
Emily is my roommate and our 1st grade teacher at The School of Promise. Her post My Cup Runneth Over is a must read. Click here for the homepage of her blog.
Laura's husband is the director of Breanna's House of Joy (the girls' home that we are involved with). BHOJ is very close to our hearts. Laura's posts are always inspiring and honest. Her post We Were Wrong {The Orphan Crisis} is a must read. Click here for the homepage of her blog.
I will SOON have some posts of my own! :0)
12.17.2010
Winter Snow
The meaning is the same, even if the traditions and surroundings aren't.
This year, I've been reflecting on the birth of Jesus. Trying to soak up all the symbolism of the Christmas story. Soaking up the
On Chris Tomlin's "Glory in the Highest" cd, Audrey Assad sings a song that I have had on repeat. The lyrics roll around and around in my head. So thankful for a God that sent my Savior who is humble and perfect and the definition of LOVE. The lyrics are below and at the bottom is a you tube video of the song.
“Winter Snow”
With all the strength of a hurricane
You could’ve come like a forest fire
With the power of Heaven in your flame
But you came like a winter snow
Quiet and soft and slow
Falling from the sky in the night
To the earth below
You could’ve swept in like a tidal wave
Or an ocean to ravish our hearts
You could have come through like a roaring flood
To wipe away the things we’ve scarred
But you came like a winter snow
You were quiet, You were soft and slow
Falling from the sky in the night
To the earth below
Oh no, Your voice wasn’t in a bush burning
No, Your voice wasn’t in a rushing wind
It was still, it was small, it was hidden
Oh, You came like a winter snow
Quiet and soft and slow
Falling from the sky in the night
To the earth below
Falling to the earth below
You came falling from the sky in the night
To the earth below
12.12.2010
She's Here!!!!
Welcome to the world
Born December 10, 2010, 7:09am, 6lbs 9oz
She is SO SO SO adorable!
Zach and Jessica couldn't be happier - such a cute family!
Love this baby. Cannot wait to meet her!!!
12.07.2010
Dear Kinsley . . .
Dear my beautiful niece, Kinsley…

Let me begin my introducing myself. I’m Brittany, your aunt. You can call me Auntie B (or whatever your cute little self comes up with). Just promise me you won’t listen to some of the silly suggestions your mom gives you – you can only call me Crazy Cat Lady if I truly end up living alone with more than 3 cats, okay?

I’m your aunt because your daddy is my brother. I know it’s confusing, but you’ll get the hang of it soon. Your mommy and I have been best friends since we were 13. That’s when your mommy and daddy met. But they started dating when they were both out of High School. You probably should just assume on waiting until you’re 25 to even start thinking about boys, okay?
Your mommy and daddy got married and had 2 monkeys! Well, actually, they adopted two puppies that your mommy calls monkeys. Again, I know it’s confusing. These doggies will be your brothers. Tater and Crosby. Just be happy your parents decided to name the dogs after Disney movies and hockey players and not you. ;) Have fun with them, I know they’ll have fun with you. If they try to play and bite you, you can bite them back.

Okay, so I think there are some important things I can tell you about your parents to give you the inside scoop.
Let’s start with your daddy. Your daddy is smart and handsome and funny (but don’t let him know I said that :0). He is kind and is calm. He is a peace maker, is thoughtful and has such a good heart. When you aren’t happy, he tries really hard to change the subject and make you smile and laugh and feel better. One of my favorite memories is that after we would fight when we were younger (you’ll understand what that’s all about if you have siblings later on), he would slip notes under my door to make up with me. (Of course, if you ask him, he won’t remember because he doesn’t remember anything from when we were younger, but your Auntie B remembers everything! Come to me for the stories, I’ve got some good ones on your daddy). He works hard and will be such a reliable daddy. He’s a really good athlete too. You should ask him to play hockey with you when you’re able to walk, he’ll love that. He already loves you to pieces. Oh, and he’s a total softie – don’t let him fool you.
And your mommy. Your mommy is smart and beautiful. She’s loving and passionate. She’s kind and thoughtful. She likes to make things really special. She’s creative and comes up with fun ideas. She is really fashionable too – so you’ll be one really well dressed baby. Your mommy is a really good friend. She and I have some of the best memories together. Classmates, sleepover buddies, concerts, road trips, coffee, shopping, talking, crying and laughing. Ask us for advice . . . we can tell you to make sure you thoroughly research how to drive from Phoenix to the Grand Canyon. We can tell you to make sure if you agree to walk ½ way between your house and your best friend’s house, that you are clear on what route you are both taking. We can tell you that friendship is worth working on and fighting for and that friendship is one of the best gifts you can ever give and receive.

Oh, one more thing about your mommy. She’s clean. Take cleaning tips from her, not from your Auntie B. Also, don’t make fun of your mommy for being a Monica - - - just embrace it and be thankful for the organization she brings to your life.
Know that you are getting one of the best mommies and one of the best daddies a girl could ask for. You are so special to them already. Your mommy and daddy can’t wait to meet you.
There are a lot of people waiting to meet you. You are so blessed with not only a fantastic mommy and daddy, but awesome grandparents, great-grandparents, aunts, uncles, cousins and the like. Not only do you have all this family, but you have God who made you special. You are adored, little girl. Hold onto that.
I can’t wait to hold you and see your face and tell you in person how special you are. I promise I’ll do my best to get some cousins for you to play with (but at this rate, you may be 20 by the time I have kids, so don’t count on it ;).
I love you baby girl with all my heart.
Auntie B




